Book Seven
Chapter
Sixty-Six - Beginnings and Beginnings
As
Vere and Robin approach the castle he stops for
a moment, and turns to her. "I shall go to speak to Father now,"
he tells her. "Will you come with me? I do not know that I
will have a chance to speak to you again, and I would have every moment
with you that I can." He gazes into her eyes. "There is
nothing I would say to Father, or he would say to me, that you cannot
hear, heart of my heart."
Robin has
tears of joy sparkling in her eyes as she nods, losing her
words. With all her heart she wants to stand by him as he stood
by her. But also strong in her mind is the Ranger's credo of
privacy - she never, never wants to crowd her man. Vere's answer
to her growing dilemma is that same easy elegance that touches
everything he is.
And she must
admit, she doesn't want to be apart either. Yet or ever.
Together the
two of them enter the castle and make their way to
Gerard's chambers.
Robin shudders
slightly as they enter the great looming teetering pile
of stones, but with her hand in Vere's and concentrating on him... it's
not *so* bad. As they walk, Vere can notice that Robin obviously
does not know the way. Furthermore, a couple of times she becomes
disoriented and looks around in confusion.
With a rueful
snort, she just walks with Vere, shaking her head at herself.
When they
arrive at the door of Gerard's chamber, they can hear Solange
and Gerard speaking within. The discussion sounds a bit heated.
Vere pauses
and listens for a moment, one hand on the handle of the
door, with his head cocked to one side.
As Robin's
eyes wander around the hallway, it's patently obvious that
she can't hear anything, an innate social skill for one raised in a
culture of canvas walls and campfires.
Through the
stout door, Vere can't make out much, but he does catch
Gerard saying his own name and Robin's.
Having a
strong belief that it's wrong to eavesdrop where you might be
caught at it when you cannot hear anything anyway, Vere opens the door
and walks in, gesturing for Robin to follow.
Woof.
Well, too late to be nervous about this now. Time to
jump off the cliff already, Robin thinks to herself. Besides,
Solange was family at that breakfast so long ago and Gerard hugged her
at the Masquerade. Out of the paternal camps indeed. Robin
smiles to Vere as she passes him.
Maaayyybeee,
her mind runs on, we could get both groups together. Course then
we'd have to keep Jove's hands off of Solange.
Dragonriders. An amused snort escapes the Ranger at that thought.
The door opens
and Vere enters the room. He nods to his father
and sister, and waits for Robin to enter before he closes the door.
The sound of
the door shutting behind her brings Robin back to the
present. She startles slightly, then waves to Gerard and Solange
with a rueful smile. "Hi, guys."
Almost
immediately, the Ranger is looking around for windows.
Gerard's
office has small windows that let in light from outside, but
they're not large. Robin doesn't think she could easily climb through
them.
"Robin. Vere.
Glad ye could come spend your last few minutes before you
have to go back to the Isles with us," Gerard says. Vere senses the
interruption is not entirely unwelcome. "Solange and I are discussing
the next steps to take for my legs."
One side of
Vere's mouth quirks fractionally upwards for half a second,
then he asks, "And did you arrive at any conclusions?"
"I did,"
Solange replies wryly. "I don't know about Father."
Robin hides a
glint of humor in her eye as she so casually
ssttttrooollls over to stand by the windows.
Gerard sighs.
"Solange wants to know whether I prefer magic or
technology as a first direction to research. I mislike them both, but
if I must choose, we'll try magic first, and if that yields nothing,
we'll look to the technology of some of these shadows you've tried,
Solange. Is that satisfactory to you both?" He looks at Vere and
Solange.
Solange is frowning fractionally.
Gerard then
over to Robin by the window. "Robin, ye're also my
daughter, or near enough. What say you?"
A happy -- and
grateful -- smile crosses Robin's face. Given her
privacy rules, there was nothing she could say until asked. And
somehow, being Gerard's daughter doesn't irritate her the way other
implications do.
"Welll, sir,"
she says in thoughtful voice as she scratches her ear contemplatively,
"if I understand the rumors right and Solange's been playin' with space
stations, I wouldn't discount nullgee for a good night's sleep.
It'd get your weight off the splinters and you could move around...
maybe a stopover wouldn't hurt."
Solange's
frown turns contemplative.
"But if it was
me or my father... I wouldn't be concentrating so much
on healing as on health. A body can heal from almost anything if
it's got a good run at it. So if you're thinkin' of finding a
shadow, I'd look for something like Shambala. Or New Eden.
Or Bob. Somewhere bursting with vitality, potential and
life. Somewhere where the joy of living could be..." Robin waves
her hand as she looks for a word but she ends with, "yours once
more."
She finishes
with a bashful smile and a there-you-have-it shrug.
Vere simply
nods, a thoughtful look coming over his face.
Solange stands
back a step or two. "All right, we pursue magic
first. Now what? I have some thoughts of my own, but I'm
interested in hearing what everyone here thinks."
Gerard frowns.
"I don't know the shadows Robin is thinking of, but I
see her point. I'm not doing so much here right now. When I had work to
do, the days passed more quickly. I know I didn't do so much exercising
as you would have liked, but the work kept my mind busy. I had less
time to think of unpleasant things."
A quick bob of
Robin's blonde head shows that she's tracking.
"Yes. Yes. Playing, laughing, living... *hope.* Best
medicine there is. If you can think of where - or what - would return
the desire.. the *thrill* of life to you, sir. That's where I'd
start. If it were me."
She looks over
to Solange with a shrug. "Me? I'm not so...
methodical. I'd just walk about trying things. Not sure
that'd work for you, Solange." Robin dips her head bashfully.
Solange smiles
at her. "That's all right, Robin. I'm not judging. Just
looking for ideas. The 'returning the desire of life' idea is a good
one. Any others? Anything else come to mind?" She glances at Vere to
include him in the question.
Vere still has
a thoughtful look on his face. He blinks, his eyes
focusing back on the here and now, and says, "Hannah." After a
second, he clarifies, "I believe that wherever Father goes, and I do
agree that this seems to me to be an excellent idea, Hannah should
accompany him, if she is willing. Or, if she needs to travel
somewhere to research methods, perhaps Father should accompany
her? Sitting around and waiting for someone else to do something
for him is not good for Father, it is antithetical to the way he lives
his life." Vere smiles fondly at his father as he says this.
Robin cocks
her head in confusion, brow furrowed slightly.
"Uh... I was
assuming you'd be leading, sir." She says to Gerard, then turns
to her sister. "I thought you just wanted a methodology,
Solange. I didn't know that you had experienced feet. Or
does Hannah fly Shadow well?"
She looks back
and forth between the three of them.
Solange
blinks, trying to keep up with Robin's idioms. "Do you know
Hannah?" she asks her. "She's a new cousin, and a doctor. She's been
overseeing Father's case."
Vere adds, "As
I understand it, the Unicorn found her and led her from
her Shadow. This is somewhat unique in Family history, as far as
I know."
"She was the
tall lady with you guys at the funeral, oui? But if
she's new, is she initi... has she Walked the Pattern?" Robin
tries to tone down her idioms a little, that blinking her sister is
doing is *way* too familiar to her.
"That's her.
She... um..." Solange pauses, wondering if it would be a
breach of privacy to tell them that Hannah has. She mentally shrugs,
figuring it will get out eventually anyway, and it only serves as
further proof she's family. She'll tell Hannah that she let the cat out
of the bag next time she sees her and apologize then. "Hannah took it.
In Xanadu. The morning after Lilly did. She's not experienced with
shadow-walking yet, I'm fairly sure." Solange pauses again, rethinking
over Robin's last questions. "Were you wondering if I'd taken the
Pattern as well? Is that what you meant by 'experienced feet'?"
Robin
laughs. "Weeeellll, I figured you'd taken the Pattern if
you were playing on a space station." There's a merry twinkle in
her eye. "I just don't know how much or how far you've walked, ma
souer."
Vere smiles in
pleasure at the joy in his beloved's voice and face, and
leans back against the wall without speaking.
Solange laughs
too. "I've been spending time lately in high-tech
shadows, exploring nanotech as a possible solution to Father's legs, so
I've walked 'that far'." Her gaze turns to take in Gerard and her
expression softens. "Which brings us back to the matter at hand. I
certainly agree with Vere that Hannah is going to be an important part
of the solution."
"Vere, you're
going to leave sometime soon and I wanted to discuss as much as we
could while you were still here," Solange continues, turning back to
the others in the room. "I wish Hannah was present to take part in this
conversation, but I can fill her in later. Any other suggestions for
pursuing a magical solution?"
"Oh."
Robin blushes. She knows she's been circling but the
habit of not showing her cards is proving harder to break than she
realized. Time to get it on. "K."
A deep breath
goes in. One that Vere would recognize as preceding a
data-dump. "This is, of course, me-bias, influenced by my own
footwork and much of it is largely theoretical, but first thing I'd
look for is Healers who are heavily invested in their work; taking
injuries on themselves and healing them there, losing years off of
their lifespans, empathic connectors and the like. Those guys
*tend* to be more altruistic types and less heavily agendaed.
"Song Magic
might make a good medium, but you'd have to watch out for the glamour
component that can sneak in there sometimes. I'd completely avoid
True Name stuff if I were you. And its cousin, First Languages,
probably won't work at all, since you" Robin nods to Gerard, "in
essence, predate most of the them.
"I'm
personally not that optimistic concerning the more 'peg and hole'
theories - sorcery, alchemy, thaumaturgy, aecademia and the like - but
that just might be my general lack of patience and focus.
Stiiiiillll... practitioners there tend to be hard bargainers or cheats
more often than not in my experience. And, of course, demonology
doesn't have enough ooompf and necromancy is right out." Robin
chuckles. "Iiiiii've.... had a bad run with deities lately so I'd steer
away from miracles and the like if I were you. 'Sides Gods tend
to be *extremely* agenda heavy." She rolls her eyes.
As she
continues, Robin settles herself back on the edge of Gerard's desk and
gestures, her green eyes warming with sincerity.
"One thing I'd
like to throw out there... when searching, don't discount
non-Oberon-style beings. While, yes, humanoids probably have more
experience with your type of physiology, sir. And yes, it's far
easier to anticipate motives and agendas in near-reflection cultures. I
still think that a wider search pattern might bring in some interesting
results.
"Insectoids
are not my favorite for healers. They tend to be a little...
harsh for that." A wry smile tugs at one corner of Robin's
mouth. "Reptilians aren't bad at *all* but given... certain
things going on here I'd stay clear of the Draconians.
"Thoooouughhh," the Ranger gets thoughtful, "if you can find a
reflection of Canareth and crew that can do what you want - not a bad
thing. Those guys are pretty beneficent.
"I have no
experience whatsoever with Aquatics but there seems to be a lot of
potential for strong Song Magic as I understand it, and the added
benefit of a physically supportive environment. Minus the
breathing problem, of course.
"My own flight
paths tend to the more... aggressive Avians, but there could be
soooomething among the grain-eaters. I suppose." Robin
doesn't sound to enthusiastic about that. She's just throwing it
in the mix.
"Higher style
mammals and mixed species... centaurs, and the like," a brief smile of
memory dashes across Robin's lips, "you'll have to balance them out the
way you would a humanoid culture, but there might be some amazing
potentials there.
"Of course,
you'd want to stay totally clear of the Fae, Small Ones,
Under-the-Hills, Dreamweavers and the like. The potential for a
truly disastrous glamour is..." Robin shakes her head and sticks out
her tongue, "yuck."
"Shapechangers... heavy agenda again. Especially since this last
little fracas. But..." Robin's face drops, "Wish Aisling
was still here...."
"Anything I
miss?" Robin glances over to Vere. Even if Vere has no
direct experience at all with what she just said, she knows that her
magnificent man can parse out the theory and find the inconsistencies
and holes as easily as breathing. And he's fun to look at too.
"An excellent
analysis," Vere says approvingly.
Solange nods
enthusiastic agreement.
"My only
addition would be a reminder of something we've already
discussed, that we are not seeking magic to heal Father, but magic that
enables him to heal. The difference, while subtle, is
crucial. Magic which heals him can be undone, and may not remain
effective under the strain of travel across shadow. But magic
which enables his body to heal on its own, albeit faster than would
otherwise occur, is much more likely to be permanent."
He pauses, and
for just an instant it appears he is going to say something else, but
then he merely gives a short nod and remains silent.
"Vere's point
is a good one. Whatever we do for Father must be able to
withstand a Patternwalk. If it can withstand that, I would think it
would be able to withstand across shadow. I'm not sure the reverse is
necessarily true." Solange looks at Gerard for his opinion.
Gerard nods in
agreement with Solange's supposition.
"Robin," she
continues, "Knowing that distinction, that the magic needs
to help Father heal himself rather than healing for him, is there
anyone or anything on your previous list that stands out in your mind?"
Robin's eyes
flicker back to Solange from where she was glancing at
Vere's start-stop. But she trusts that Vere knows what he's doing
- even with that kind of presentation.
"Weeelllll,
frankly I think that's going to depend on where the Prince's own list
intersects with mine. While *I* might be very fond of reptilian
song magic pursued in a primal verdant atmosphere..." Robin
smiles fondly. "Though, really, I think parasaurolophus
meditative chants are a *wonder* to experience for anyone..."
She shakes herself out of the
memory with a snap. "Anyway, if
Gerard isn't into that kind of thing, it's not going to work."
She nods to the former Regent.
"Indeed," Vere
says with a decisive nod. "Father, we are giving
you ideas, but the decision on what to pursue must be yours. I
think the important thing is that you do begin. Enforced
inactivity is not good for a temperament such as yours." He looks
to Solange and Robin for support of that statement.
Solange is in
full agreement with that statement, too.
Robin's nod
completes the triad.
Gerard has
been absorbing all of the suggestions flying back and
forth. He takes a moment to start speaking. "If we're looking for
someone to heal me, a wide range of travel would seem to be the right
course, though I still mislike setting so many on an errand on one
man's behalf." The former Regent frowns, his expression recalling
arguments with Jerod on the same subject over the past few years.
"But if we're
looking for somewhere for me to heal myself, somewhere for me to go to
relieve the stresses of Amber, I think some of Robin's options are a
bit far-fetched. Singing lizards are all well and good, but I like
people. I can't imagine feeling completely at ease without them around.
And if Hannah's to come with me, it should be a place she can abide. So
I think something like us--two-leggers, you might say, Robin, or
nothing more strange than centaurs or the like--for a first step, and a
wider range for longer-term healing."
While Gerard
ponders what else to add, there's a knock at the door, and he calls
"Come in!" A page pushes open the door and looks around, settling on
Robin. "Message for you, lady, and I was told to wait for a reply." He
hands her a note.
Green eyes
blink in surprise but she takes the note with a nod.
For a moment
Robin wavers. Vere's time is trickling steadily away and Julian
wouldn't send a note if he or Jovian were in trouble. And the
paper doesn't smell like Paige. But... there's also a King in
this Castle. With an apologetic wince to the others, Robin opens
the note and reads. Slowly. Though she does manage to avoid
the tongue tip this time.
Robin,
I have
something I would like to discuss with you. It would be best if
we could meet either tonight or early tomorrow morning. I will leave
the place up to you. Please let me know when and where.
Thank You!
Your cousin,
Lilly
"Oh
verde." Robin mutters dispiritedly to herself.
"*Please* Unicorn, let this not be about Daeon."
Solange's
eyebrows go up. "If there's anything we can do to
help..." she says. It sounds lame in her own ears, but saying
anything else might be considered a breach of privacy.
"What is the
problem, my love?" Vere asks.
Those two
sweet words on his two sweet lips bring a smile to Robin's
face. She looks around to the three of them. Family.
"It's from
Lilly. She wants to talk with me about something. And you
know her, she's gets squidgy every time Daeon's name is
mentioned. Dung." Robin frowns petulantly. "I'm going
to be scraping Daeon scat off my boots forEV..." her eyes drift to
where Gerard sits - the Prince seeing to his sister's daughters.
"ver." She
finishes with a wry twist to her mouth and an ironic sparkle in her
eye. "Because he's family and that's the way it is."
Solange
swallows a grin.
Gerard nods
firmly in agreement, smothering a grin at Robin's sudden
change of direction.
"Mon
coeur?" The Ranger drags herself over to Vere, eyes
brimming. "I... need to stay for just a little while
longer." Her voice quavers with the tearing in her heart.
"I need to see if Paige will let me see the kids. I... missed so
much. I'll see if I can catch a ride with Canareth and
Jovian. And be there just as soon as I can... oh, Vere. I'm
so sorry."
"Shhh..." Vere
says, taking her in his arms. "There is nothing
for which to be sorry. That you are coming to the Isles at all is
a blessing, I shall not quibble over the timing. We are always
together, no matter how far apart our bodies may be."
Feeling like
very much the third wheel, Solange steps over to Gerard's
chair to afford Vere and Robin a little privacy. She gives her father a
"So, how 'bout that crazy weather?" sort of smile.
But Gerard's
attention is somewhere else. "Who?" he asks. After a
moment, he says, "Vere, it's your mother."
Robin's sudden
clutch of Vere to herself is fierce and
convulsive. She buries her head in his collar.
Vere gives her
a strong hug, then takes her by the shoulders and gently
pushes her far enough away so that he can look down into her
face. "Soon," he says.
Robin nods
without words. And throws herself against him,
catching him into a ferocious kiss -- her breath and soul blending with
his -- that lasts forever.
Until she
reeeeelllluuuuuccctantly pulls herself away to bump absentmindedly back
against the wall behind her. Her eyes are green with passion,
moisture and a unspoken promise that hell and high water follow him
shortly to Danu.
He steps to
his father's side and rests a hand on Gerard's shoulder.
"Goodbye. Tell
Papa hello for me. Be safe," Solange says to Vere. She
gives her brother a kiss on the cheek, then steps over to stand by
Robin.
Vere finds
himself in contact with his mother as he touches his
father. "Vere," the Lady says, "it's time to come home." She
extends her hand to him.
The page is
still waiting for an answer from Robin, and seems a bit
confused by all the excitement.
Vere gives his
sister a final smile, squeezes Gerard's shoulder, and
then casts a long last look at Robin. Then he turns to face his
mother, reaches out for her hand, and steps through.
As Vere
disappears, Robin's breath leaves her in a great sigh and she
slumps back against the wall. She's probably not aware of the
soft longing croon that escapes her lips as she stares at the spot that
once held her beloved.
A rough shake
of her blonde head and a ruffle of non-existent feathers brings Robin
back to herself and she looks to Gerard and Solange with questioning
eyes. What now?
"Robin, may I
get Julian's trump back from you?" Solange asks.
Green eyes
blink for a moment. "Oh! Yeah."
The Ranger
pulls a hard wooden case out of an interior pocket of her vest.
Keeping it facing herself and herself only, she carefully - almost
finickily - withdraws the Trump and hands it to Solange face
down. "Sorry 'bout that."
"Not a
problem." Solange reshuffles it back into her own deck.
"Uh...
Solange? Can we talk sometime? When there's not so
many men-folk around?" She casts an amused eye toward Gerard, but
includes the page in her gaze.
"Certainly. We
could talk now...unless you have business?" Solange
looks at the page significantly.
"Maybe later
would be better." Robin smiles weakly.
"Sir? I
don't mean to pontificate and run, but did you want anymore of my
far-fetched thoughts?" There's warm humor in Robin's eyes as she
turns to Gerard. The girl knows that when it comes to
brain-storming, she tends to be a bit more on the storm side than the
brain side.
"You go deal
with Lilly, and if you have any more ideas, we can discuss
them in the morning," Gerard says, with a gesture at the page. "But if
ye need my help tonight in dealing with yer brother's business, come
back up and we can talk."
Robin's mouth
drops open slightly in surprise. Wheels start
turning in her head. There's... things she can't say to
Julian. Or to Jovian. And she didn't know that there was
anyone other than Vere she could talk to.
"I... that
would be nice, sir. Thank you." She says quietly.
"Yer welcome,"
Gerard replies.
"Perhaps we
can talk tomorrow, too. I should be around," Solange says.
"K."
Robin says with a bashful dip of her head. Eventually
though, the smile and warmth that is growing in her can't be contained
and she throws herself on Solange for an enormous hug.
Surprised,
Solange hugs her back.
Following up
with another for Gerard.
"Thank
you. Thank you both." She just looks at the two of them for
a moment, beaming.
Solange looks
back at her curiously, but then her expression slips into
a return grin.
Then the segue
master hits again.
"Bye."
And the Ranger rushes out the door before she does something to screw
up the moment.
Out into the
hall she flies. The hall where the walls seem to
lean in ever so slightly. The hall where the air flows sluggishly
at best and the sounds come warped and distorted from all sorts of
strange directions. The hall where...
"Oog."
Robin pauses
for a moment. And pauses again. Darn it!
With a bashful
grin, she pokes her head back in the room. A cheerful whistle and
a come-along gesture is directed to where the page still stands,
blinking in confusion at the sudden lack of his reply.
The young man
jerks and, with a hurried bow to Gerard and Solange, rushes out of the
room after the retreating Ranger.
Once away from
Gerard's chamber, Robin slows her speed - mostly out of
courtesy to the page hurrying up behind her. Though there's
definitely some confusion there as well.
Coming to a
stop, the Ranger turns a smile on the young man. "Soooo, where
*is* Lilly?"
Perhaps
stories about Julian's perpetually lost daughter have filtered down to
enough of the staff, because after a rocky start, the page rallies
well, figuring that bringing Robin should count as a 'reply' even to
the Queen's austere (and beautiful) bodyguard.
"This way,
ma'am." With a polite gesture and an unerring sense of direction,
the page leads Robin through the hallways, stairways and byways of
Amber Castle. In short order, the two stand before Lucas'
door.
Robin looks
around in confusion, her nose wrinkling. What is that
*smell?!* And the corridor... so strange to her forest-born
eyes. Somehow, she didn't figure that she'd find Lilly
here. With sword-snagging fabric and tapestries hanging
everywhere, completely non-functional whats... tables? holding...
things that look fragile and not at all useful in a fight. The
carpet sucks at the Ranger's boots with almost obscene intimacy and
she's pretty sure that the colors are doing something bad to her eyes.
The page on
the other hand seems to know exactly what he's doing. With quick
efficient strokes, he settles his hair, straightens his tabard, swipes
away dust that Robin can't even *see*, polishes his shoes on the backs
of his trews, draws himself up to an appropriate carriage and knocks
with the perfect mix of deference and competence.