Book
Five
Chapter
Forty-Five - Light in the Darkness
Later
on the night of the Masquerade (or more
properly very, very early the next morning), a lone figure leaves the
castle
and enters the dark gardens. Vere has bathed and changed his
clothing,
he now wears a loose pair of grey trousers and a dark blue shirt.
His
hair is unbound, and he is barefoot. As he enters the shadows of
the
garden he pauses, and for the first time that day finally relaxes.
At
last he is away from the watching eyes, the constant judgements.
He
luxuriates in the moment, throwing his head back and staring at the
endless
stars above him. For a long time he stands there, enjoying the
experience
of simply being, without any responsibilities or duties.
Then
he gives a rueful chuckle, and recalls himself to the here and
now.
He runs his hands through his hair, wincing slightly at the pain in his
shoulder.
Walking quietly, he heads for the north eastern corner of the gardens,
searching
for his lady's sleeping place among the yews.
Robin shifts slightly, her eyes still closed, her self
still
partially asleep. Her brows are furrowed. The noise never
stops
here. Even in the 'still' of the morning, there are voices and
the
clink of pots and washing from the kitchens. The scurrying of
scullery
maids in the hallways. The changing of the guards, the wheels on
cobblestones
of the delivery wagons, the slap of wet laundry. Maybe those that
dwell
here don't hear them anymore, but Robin does. And she can't rest.
Almost
silently, there comes another sound, the whisper of bare feet on
grass.
The Ranger's eyes fly open, her heart in her mouth. Carefully,
she
shifts in the joint between branch and trunk and peers out between the
needles
of the ancient yew in which she shelters.
Robin's
breath catches as He strolls into view; unbound, graceful, *quiet*, his
hair
flowing in the night breeze. For a moment, all she can do is
watch,
her eyes drinking in the beauty of Vere free in the greenery.
"Vere..." she breathes out finally and rolls off the limb to land in a
limber
and graceful crouch beneath the yew. Gone is the annoying glowing
paint,
the silly skirt, the strange only half-understood symbolism.
Instead
Robin is once more a Ranger. The colors of the wild on her
clothes
and in the weapons she wears. The dark brown trews blending into
the
trunk of the yew. Dark green jerkin, pine green shirt... in the
darkness,
Robin might have stepped forth from the tree itself.
Only
her glimmering eyes and the white smile that she cannot fight back mark
her
out from the yew.
At the quiet sound of his name from above Vere turns
towards
her, and as she lands gracefully on the ground he walks to where she
stands,
laughing lightly. "I was searching for you upon the ground," he
says.
"I did not think to look in the trees themselves. How foolish of
me."
He holds out his hands.
"Never foolish." Robin chuckles back, his laughter
trickling
down her spine like a waterfall. Stepping away from the shelter
of
the yew and into Vere's warmth, she takes his hands into her own.
At
their touch, a shiver runs through the girl and she continues to move
forward
until she stands within the circle of his breath. Her eyes are
enormous
in the darkness and she looks up into his face, the night wind blowing
occasional
stray strands across his brow.
"Vere...."
In that drawn-out tone, love, longing, desire and willingness to let
him
set the pace.
He holds her hands silently, staring down into her
eyes.
Then, with a soft sigh, he takes a half step back from her, releasing
her
hands as he moves. "Are you all right?" he asks. "I did not
have
a chance to speak with you after your battle." For the moment he
avoids
raising the topic he knows he must soon turn to.
A quick bright smile darts across Robin's face for a
moment,
and the girl gives a quick shake to her head. To shake the stars
out
of her eyes. Robin lets the fires within herself burn lower, the
desire
withdrawing, leaving in its place a warm glow of fond regard.
"I
was uninjured." She says with an ironic smile, echoing her brother's
earlier
words - with all their connotations. Her eyes dart away into the
darkness.
"Dad and Jove are helping with the rest." She looks back to Vere,
rueful
humor glinting in her eyes.
Reaching
out gently, she takes one of his hands again. Just holding it, as
a
friend would. "How's your shoulder?"
His fingers tighten on hers. "A nothing," he
says.
"I was slow in dodging." He stands silently for a few moments,
simply
watching her, being with her. "Shall we walk?" he asks at last.
"I'd like that." She smiles with warmth in her
voice.
Robin parts some of the low hanging boughs of the yew and steps out
into
the open grass, drawing Vere after her.
Drawing
a deep breath of the night air into her lungs, Robin looks around at
the
encircling stone, and up to the glinting stars. When her gaze
returns
to Vere, there's a quiet smile on her lips. Calm and happy.
"It'll
be okay, Vere," she murmurs, a hum on the night's air, "I have
faith.
In both of us."
Vere tilts his head to one side and regards her quietly
for
a few moments. Finally he nods, and says quietly, "No doubt you
are
right. But let me explain the situation." He drops her hand
and
turns away from her, staring up over the stone wall at the sky beyond
the
grounds of the castle's garden.
"I
consider this a new beginning," he says. "You are not obligated
by
anything said or done before this moment. I expect nothing from
you,
I do not consider that you owe me anything." He takes a deep
breath,
then slowly exhales.
"Father's
legs are not healing," he says it with no expression in his face, a
bare
statement of fact. "They are dying. There is a limit on how
much
time he has to find healing for them. And I considered that he
was
not acting swiftly enough, that he was letting other considerations,
other
duties, interfere with his seeking a way to heal them."
He
shrugs slightly, "The situation is more complicated than I thought at
the
time, but I still think I was right to do what I did. He will act
more
decisively for someone else's welfare than he will for his own."
A
slight smile touches his lips. "We are not dissimilar."
"So,
I made his health a matter of concern for myself as well as for
him.
I swore an oath before him, by my blood and by all that I am, that his
healing
would be placed above all concerns of mine own, and that I would never
in
my life take wife nor lover until he walks once more. The oath is
sworn
and cannot be unsworn. Not would I do so, even if I could."
He
stands silently for a few moments longer, then turns back to Robin, his
eyes
searching her face for her reaction.
The girl's eyes are darting around, and her head twitches
in
response to a myriad of internal conversations. Expressive hands
flutter
and emotions dash across her face almost too quickly to register;
sadness,
anger, thoughtfulness, planning, concern, love, sympathy... eventually
an
extremely frustrated trill emerges from the girl. And her
shoulders
heave in irritated pants.
"Okay."
Robin ruffles enormously -- head, shoulders, waist -- as though
aligning
feathers of thought into something more comfortable. "Okay..."
When
she looks back up at Vere, the golden light of love is burning strong
behind
her green eyes. "Vere... I will never force you against yourself
or
your oath. All I *can* do is give you myself. Which I
do."
She holds out a hand toward him.
Almost involuntarily Vere steps towards her, taking her
hand
in his. Hope and love fight for control of his face, with no
attempt
at concealment. "I cannot ask such a commitment," he says.
"I
do not have the right." He steps closer to her and whispers, "But
I
do not have the strength to refuse it."
"You didn't ask." Robin's tone is gentle with
underswells
of endearment as her fingers twine around Vere's. Her other hand
comes
up to rest on his uninjured shoulder. "I don't care about
rights.
And you are the strongest man I know." Her voice becomes more and
more
hushed as rapture takes her.
When
Vere is close enough, she lifts her face and kisses him gently on the
lips.
A warm sigh blows through her, breath held so long being slowly
released
in joyful lingering contentment. Her body is taut and quivering,
relaxing
into the warmth and wonder of the man before her. Her own lips
are
soft and sweet.
Vere holds her tightly, tasting her, breathing her in, and
then
gradually, slowly, relaxing and lifting his head just far enough to
gaze
down at her in wonder. He shakes his head in amazement, kisses
her
briefly once more, then holds her to his chest, his head tilted
slightly
and resting against hers. His heart beats quickly within him, and
he
murmurs, "How quickly life can change, my lady. How rapidly the
Tapestry
is woven anew."
Robin clasps Vere to herself, aligning her body against
his,
melding herself into his curves and planes. Her hands slide
behind
his shoulderblades, cradling him there for the length of their
kiss.
When lips first part, she gazes back up into Vere's eyes, her own
glimmering
with liquid joy. At the second kiss, a bit of playfulness slips
into
the girl, and she kisses him back bright and sparkling, happy laughter
tugging
at the corner's of her lips.
Robin
tucks her head under his chin, pressed against him, listening to the rhythm
of his heart beating, becoming so closely intertwined
with the higher faster beat of her own. The sound of his words
welling
up from him to be given birth into the air brings a smile to her
lips.
And she nods, a warm croon of agreement sliding up out of her own
throat.
Oh,
yes. The Tapestry is woven rapidly. And *this* time, Robin
is
content.
Vere, too, is content, and for a long while will simply
hold
her, basking in the perfection of the moment. There are still so
many
things to be discussed, so many plans to make, so many questions to ask
and
answer. But there is time enough. For now, nothing more
needs
to be said.
Robin rests forever in Vere's arms. Deep within
herself,
a well of golden joy and brilliant happiness begins to swell.
Though
there will always be physical desire, Robin lets the sparks of
affection,
the currents of admiration, the sheer exuberant delight fountain upward
most
strongly. Harmonies of bliss, melodies of love strum along her
air,
her heart, eventually swirling up through her throat to emerge as
scintillate
whistles, soft and powerful. Singing without words, joyous
laughter
in quick quiet chirps.
Eventually
she slips her head out from under Vere's chin. "Vere? How
public
did you want us-ness to be?"
"Mmmm?" It takes Vere a moment to process the
question,
a clear indication to anyone who knows him of just how lost he was in
the
experience of holding Robin. "I am a private person, my love, and
would
normally say that it is no one's business but ours. And yet..."
he
laughs and shakes his head, "I find myself wanting to go down to
Drudge's
office right this moment and tell him that the front page of tomorrow's
issue
of the Amber Crier must read 'Vere Loves Robin' in his largest type."
The 'my love' brings a wriggle of happiness from the
girl.
Oh my, yes. She is going to like this. She grins up at
him.
"I knoooow." It comes out as a joyous trill. "I find myself
fighting
back a call that could shatter windows." There's so much
exuberance
in her that she's practically crackling with energy.
"But
for all the beauty of your not-answer," she butts his chin fondly with
her
forehead _*her* man, the master of words_. The girl's heart leaps
with
joy.
He chuckles at that, rather pleased at her having caught
him
evading the question.
"I'm serious. I wasn't exactly... subtle at the
Masq.
And I've got a feeling I'm just going to get worse." She
blushes.
"I... *don't* want to embarrass you. I *know* that you have to
live
here, work here. But I also don't understand how to act in the
Castle.
"When we cross paths in the center foyer, what should it be,
Vere? Polite nods with poignant glances? Or can I hug you,
take
your hand? Do we stand together at family gatherings? Or do
we
remain in our paternal camps?"
The
girl bites her lips nervously as she searches her love's face.
She
knows what she wants the answer to be, but he *does* have to work and
live
here. And an active, temperamental and demonstrative woman might,
perhaps,
cramp his style.
He smiles at her fondly. "The only reason I would
ever
wish to hide this would be to protect you, my lady. To shield you
from
the gossip, the prying eyes, the constant speculation. I can deal
with
it, it is nothing different from what I knew every day of my life in my
mother's
court. But you..." he pauses, his smile fading. "You are a
wild,
free creature. I could not bear to cause you pain."
"Oo!" Robin blinks as quicksilver thoughts dart
behind
her eyes. "Good call." She murmurs appreciatively.
"I've
been paying so much attention to the big predators, I wasn't watching
out
for the small scavengers." Robin's lips cock wryly.
Her eyes wander off as she runs various scenarios through her
mind. Eventually, she just shakes her head and looks back to
Vere,
slightly dumbfounded. She doesn't have enough experience to
predict
what the environment will bring or what her reactions to it will be.
But
that doesn't mean she can't do anything about it.
First
things first though.
She
lays a gentle hand alongside Vere's cheek and lets the glow of love
burn
up into her eyes. "You could never cause me pain, Vere.
Just
by virtue of your you-ness." The smile that lights her face is
beatific.
"Deep Shadows, man. You are such a miracle..." She shakes
her
head, she doesn't have the words for her amazement and wonder.
After
another of those eternities lost in his eyes, Robin shakes her head
with
a chuckle and drags herself back to subject.
"How's
this for a plan? We're open - secrets make better weapons for
conspirators
than obviousness."
Vere nods his agreement to this statement.
"We stand together, hold hands, hug in the corridors,
etc.
But I *watch* you. You flag me down if the situation is
dangerous.
I completely trust your judgment in that, Vere." She smiles with
absolute
faith. "And I'll do my best to keep it calm and restrained.
Though
I, of course, reserve the right to override if I think it's really,
really
important." She wrinkles her nose. "Do you think that'll
work?"
Because, after all, he *is* the expert.
"Yes," he says. And then again, more
definitely.
"Yes. That should work out just fine." He thinks quietly
for
a few moments.
Robin grins. Oh, she loves watching Vere's wheels
turn.
The man is absolutely brilliant and she had hoped he would be able to
incorporate
her wildness into his plans.
"Father knows already, of course. You asked his
permission
to court me." He cannot help the delighted grin that crosses his
face
as he says that. "What of Prince Julian? And I would like
to
tell Solange of this as quickly as possible, before it becomes public
knowledge.
Will that be acceptable?"
"Oh, yes. *Please* tell Solange." Robin's eyes
color
with sympathy. "Poor girl..." she ticks her tongue quietly.
Solange
was probably going to get more Robin than she knew what to do with,
through
no action of her own.
Then
her eyes glimmer with humor as she looks off to the side. "Dad
knows.
And has also been officially updated." Her eyes come back to
Vere.
"He's okay with it." It's hard to translate Julian into something
anyone
else would find comforting, but Robin tries to convey her father's
reserved
acceptance as favorably as possible.
Vere nods, hearing what she's not saying. "He does
not
know me yet," he observes mildly. "I would be disappointed if he
did
not withhold final judgement pending more information."
Robin smiles happily. It's so easy talking with
Vere.
He listens, he hears.
There is another of those pauses of his. "King
Corwin
is leaving for his realm at noon tomorrow, and I am expected to
accompany
him. This makes my flight with Jovian and Kourin unlikely.
I
do not know how long I will be gone, I do not know that we will have a
chance
to see each other before I leave for the Isles." He takes her in
his
arms and holds her close once more.
"Wisdom
says that we will both need our rest for tomorrow, and should seek our
beds
now." Despite his words, he does not seem as though he's planning
on
releasing her anytime soon.
Robin snuggles back into Vere firmly with a nose
wrinkle.
Wisdom? Pfah! She's never been the wisdom type.
Besides,
she wants whatever time with Vere she can grab.
For a long while, she is just *there* -- in his arms, in his
warmth, listening to his breath and his heartbeat, catching the scent
of
his hair in the night wind into herself. Her eyes close and a
sigh-hum
purrs through her.
Eventually
though she cannot bury the icy cold dread that is crawling up her
spine.
Robin places her hands on Vere's shoulders and looks him in the
eye.
"*Who!?* Corwin? And why are you expected to accompany with him?!"
It's
like a nightmare, Vere in *His* claws.
Vere frowns slightly, considering the tone of her
voice.
"A fairly large party will apparently accompany King Corwin when he
departs.
I have not been informed of all the details. However, it seems that the
King
of Paris founded his realm by creating his own Pattern. Princess
Fiona
and my Father, and I assume King Random, are all agreed that it would
be
best for me to walk this Pattern quickly."
"Corwin created a *Pattern!?*" Robin barely manages
to
stifle the shriek. Her eyes get large, the color drains from her
face.
The girl starts to shake and her knees buckle.
"Vere!"
It's a desperate call, a reaching out from someone who is sliding away.
Vere holds her arms firmly, not allowing her to
fall.
"I am here, my love," he says. "Whatever disturbs you, I am here."
She clutches him as though he were a lifeline, burying her
face
in his chest. "Vere." Robin breathes the word out like a
mantra.
"Vere. Vere."
No
choking black smoke, only the scent of Vere carried on the night
breeze.
No harrying flames, only the warmth of his body flowing through the
open
air. No crushing stones, only the light of the stars on his
face.
The girl shakes and struggles, fighting back hysteria.
And
there - divinely, beautifully -- is his breath, his heartbeat.
Here
and Now. Real. Slowing her own gasps, Robin matches her
breathing
to Vere's. In. Out. Real. In. Out.
Real.
Gradually, the shakes drop away to tremors and the tremors to deep even
breaths.
That
stop for a moment, as Robin's head cocks in curiosity.
When
she lifts her head to look into Vere's eyes, there's a dawning
understanding
growing there. "Corwin," she whispers, "created a Pattern."
Confirming
it as thought the fact might have been lost in the storm that proceeded.
"So it seems." He considers her carefully, trying to
determine
if the crisis is over. "I understand some of the metaphysical
implications,
though certainly not on the same level that someone who has walked the
Pattern
of Amber would. What about this worries you so?" He smiles
slightly.
"Other, of course, than concern that King Corwin managed to do what the
family
struggled so mightily to prevent Prince Brand from doing?"
Deep inside Robin a lightness is starting, as though a
burden
was being lifted from her wings. Sparkles of relief and elation
are
beginning to form in her eyes.
At
Vere's careful words, his wry humor, his solidarity and intelligence,
Robin smiles with admiration and kisses him quickly. Oh, he is so
Vere.
And he still holds her. And thus, she is still here.
Robin's
grip changes from a clutch to a warm delighted hug.
"I...
don't have a good grip on the metaphysics, Vere. For all that
I've
Walked. It's probably one of the reasons I'm... not coping
well."
She finishes with an embarrassed blush.
"It's just that...
*Corwin*
created a Pattern. And *Jerod* gave Random an arrow.
And.... it was *your* father who was crushed beneath
the stones...." one trembling hand goes up to Robin's lips as idea
after
idea cascades through her mind, shimmering and bright, realigning her
universe.
"I touched the crown! I wonder if Eric.... Unicorn!
He
started the fire!" A flash of excitement runs through the girl
and
she grows lighter and lighter, as though a burden were being lifted
from
her wings.
"But
wait. It was *Brand* who bled Martin...." those bright eyes
search another world, and a furrow develops in Robin's
brow.
Something doesn't match.
"Vere?
Was
Brand ever King or Regent of Amber?" She asks with trepidation.
"Not as far as I have heard. None claimed the throne
between
Oberon and Eric, and after Eric there was only Corwin. Then
Oberon
returned, and named my father Regent in his absence. Then came
Random."
Vere tilts his head to one side, watching her. "I am left behind
by
your thoughts, my lady. There are things in what you say that I
do
not understand."
"Things... from the darkness, Vere. I don't know -
and
perhaps I'll never know -- if they were visions. Or events.
And
I don't understand them either. But..." Robin grins, the
lightness
shooting through her eyes as she grabs Vere's arms, the arms that have
held
her here, anchored her to *this* Amber. "four out of five
delusions
agree. It wasn't me!"
"Oooo."
She croons joyously as she tucks herself under Vere's chin once
more.
"*Thank* you, Vere!"
Unseen above her head, Vere raises an eyebrow and his lips
turn
up slightly at the corners of his mouth. "You are most welcome,
Robin,
although I confess I do not understand exactly what you're thanking me
for."
He pauses, considering, and then continues with less amusement in his
voice,
"I well understand that visions can be very confusing, and must be
considered
carefully. And at times and places where the rules change, that
can
be even more the case."
Robin sighs. "Consideration... and care aren't my
strongpoints,
Vere." She hugs him fondly. She knows who's they are.
"And
we don't have the time tonight. But for now, it's enough to know
that
-- perhaps -- I haven't come to Amber as a murdered corpse ridden by a
re-written
soul with the blood of a crown prince on my hands." Robin
shivers,
there's still a long way to go. But a smile lifts her lips as she
looks
back up at Vere. At least she now knows that there's a light at
the
end of the tunnel.
The
smile is swiftly followed by a flicker of concern in her
eyes.
"'Well understand'?" This from the man who is so careful to state when
he
hasn't directly experienced something.
"Training is the key," Vere replies. "Which leads to
another
topic, one upon which I would like to know your feelings. Before
we
became 'we' I had been laying out my plans for my life.
Obviously,
walking the Pattern, restoring my mother to her throne, and restoring
my
father to health are the first three priorities, and must unfortunately
be
taken in that order. The first has been superceded by walking *a*
Pattern,
if not the one I would have chosen. So be it.
"The
question still remains of where my life shall lead after I have
accomplished
these three simple tasks." He smiles again, a bare quirk of the
lips.
"Originally, I had planned to take the Psyche, and sail alone though
shadow,
exploring the seas of many worlds. I had no great desire to
remain
at court. It is, in many ways, too similar to my mother's for my
taste.
The Princess Fiona, however, has indicated that once I have freed
myself
from these obligations she will entertain a petition for me to become
her
student. She offers no promise that she will grant the petition,
but
she gives me hope."
He
looks at her seriously. "What do you think, my love? I
would
wish to find a path that will allow us to be together. I will
turn
my back on both these paths and come to Arden, if that is your desire."
Robin grins as Vere starts speaking. _There you go,
my
love. *I* can run on forever, jump on in there._ Her eyes
sparkle
with laughter and love.
Then
she listens carefully.
At
the end of Vere's words, Robin's brows fly up and a little 'eeep!'
escapes
her. Her eyes ignite and she leaps - even though she still has no
weight
on the ground thanks to Vere - to engulf him in a tight hug. "Oh,
Vere!
That's so sweet of you."
She
leans back, happy and laughing. "But so unnecessary, sweet
man."
She kisses the tip of his nose. "I was always planning on meeting
you
halfway." She grins at him.
Robin's
visage grows thoughtful as she considers Vere's points.
"Hmmmm.
Where my thoughts wandered. I... don't really want to see you on
Corwin's
Pattern." A scowl pulls her lips downward before a resigned sigh
flows
through her. "Buuuuuttt, I don't know where the Pattern I walked
*is.*
And I can't guarantee that there's a functioning one in Tir.
Aaaaannndd
I know that it was the advantage of that, that let me and Jove get the
upper
hand on Vianis. So, fine." Pout, sulk.
"But
I swear to you, Vere. I *ever* detect Him messing with you
through
that, I will spray his guts through all of Shadow; treaties, playing
nice
and whatever regardless." Robin snarls.
After
that pronouncement, she gets an odd little gleam in her eyes. And
a
hidden smile dances around the corners of her lips. "Psyche... is your
boat,
right? I mean, I knew that I would have to meet your boat
eventually."
Her shoulders lift in a light sigh and she glances bashfully away,
though
there's something laughing under her skin.
"Vere? I don't often have... water under the soles of
my boots. It's just not something I'm used to. But lately,
I've
been wondering what I'd look like in a bikini." She peeks out
from
under her lashes at him, green teasing in the starlight.
Then
the girl becomes more serious. "As far as Princess Fiona's maybe
offer
goes." Robin purses her lips. "No call on that one, my
love.
Fiona... is someone I stay away from. For a variety of
reasons."
There's no animosity in Robin there. More like someone saying
she's
not fond of strawberries than the hatred the Ranger bears for
Corwin.
"So I'm not a good judge of how good the deal is. If it's
something
*you* strongly want to do, then do it. I can fit my life around
that,
I think."
She
wrinkles her nose at Vere. "Remind me to tell you about 'The
Lodge'
sometime, sweetling."
"The Lodge," Vere repeats, smiling. "I will
remember."
It sounds like a promise. "As to future plans, we will look at
them
as they come. It is enough for now to know that our futures will
include
each other." He kisses her once more, lightly. "I look
forward
to getting you upon the water. The sea has always been a major
part
of my life, I hope you will suit each other."
"Me too, Vere. Even a tree-rat like myself knows
that
you don't get between a man and his boat." She wrinkles her nose
teasingly
at him. She cocks her head, "And I've heard that it's quiet on
the
sea. And wild. Now just as long as I don't get
sea-sick."
She winks. Robin is obviously of the belief that it's not
possible
for scions of Amber to get sea-sick.
The
girl rests her forehead against Vere's chin and another long content
happy
sigh drifts through her. She's come to rest again in his arms.
He smiles, content to hold her quietly for as long as she
is
content to remain in his arms.
The stars turn overhead in their stately procession and
Robin
remains with Vere. Though even when quiet and peaceful, the girl
is
hardly still - only moving more slowly. She takes her time and
explores
her way around Vere, finding all the sweet spots.
Tucked
under his chin, nice. Rest there for a while.
With
her back against his warm solidarity, his arms enfolding her, looking
out
over the garden. MMmmmmm.... Linger there.
At his
side,
walking slowly, arms around each other's waists... Like she was born
for
it.
Many
kisses and nibbles.
Robin
especially loves running her fingers through Vere's long hair and
playing
with the ends of individual locks.
And
at least one bout of tickling is initiated.
Vere, it turns out, is not ticklish. He seems
familiar
with the concept, however, and proves adept at discovering all of
Robin's
ticklish areas.
Robin is very ticklish. Her skin, for all its
strength,
is very sensitive; ribs, beneath her arms, the backs of her knees,
under
her chin, and especially the soles of her feet. She laughs in
great
gasping helpless gales until tears pour from her eyes and she can't
breathe.
Enormous bouts of gayety that light the garden with exuberance.
For now he is clearly happy to let Robin take the lead,
deciding
when they sit silently, when they walk through the garden, when they
pause
and hold up a tree for a little while. Even when moving, Vere
somehow
conveys a sense of stillness and calm. And at the center of that
stillness
is his unwavering focus on Robin.
Robin looks up at him from where she lays with her head in
his
lap, sprawled on the rolling sward of the garden. Once again, she
has
captured the blowing ends of a lock of Vere's hair and has been drawing
it
idly across her smiling lips. Her eyes crinkle into happy
creases,
watching Vere memorize her, add her to his soul to carry with himself
from
this night forward.
She
has been humming quietly to herself, something slow sweet and
romantic.
But as she looks up at him, the tune changes to something more driving
and
the fire appears in her eyes again. Robin's scent changes and her
position
becomes less languid. She sighs, closes her eyes and forces
herself
to relax -- not an easy thing.
"Vere?
Where are the lines, please? I... don't want to push you or tempt
you.
So I have to know. Please, define 'lover.'"
Vere chuckles ruefully. "I was not considering the
question
closely enough when I phrased my oath," he says. "However, it
detracts
from the dramatic impact of such an oath to build in exceptions and
precise
definitions when swearing before the powers of the universe." He
strokes
her face lovingly. "I fear we must err on the side of caution, my
love.
It is unfair to you, who are not bound by any oath."
"Ah, sweetling. I'm not worried about fair or unfair
at
all." She kisses the tip of one of Vere's fingers.
"It's
just that... I've been places where what we've done tonight would bind
us
forever as man and wife. And I've been places where we could Oath
by
the Unicorn in front of the King of Amber and not be considered lovers
if
we hadn't presented each other with a fresh kill made by our own
hands.
And in Arden..." she shrugs, "we tend not to use either 'wife' or
'lover'
much. So I really don't know what you meant by lover."
Robin's
lips cock wryly.
"Buuuut..."
she laughs, "far be it from me to decry the necessity of dramatic
impact
when before the powers of the universe. So, if you promise --
*promise*
-- to let me know when we're close to the borders, I'll trust you on
that."
Her
eyes look up into Vere's, soft, loving with a hint of fear in
them.
"See Vere, I couldn't live with myself if I'd led you to betray
yourself.
For whatever reason."
"Never fear that, my love," he says tenderly. "I did not
swear
not to know love, merely its physical expression. I know clearly what I
meant
when I swore that oath. I will not overstep it."
He
pauses, considering, "Fresh kills, eh? That can wait some little while,
I
hope?"
Robin's green eyes look up at Vere. Okay, two no's and an
assurance.
Good enough. She smiles, nods and goes back to playing with Vere's hair.
Listening
to his voice welling up from inside of him, Robin chuckles. "It was
just
an example." Her eyes wander. "Though.... after your oath's fulfilled,
I'd
love to take you to the Rain Festivals in Murawbi." A little wriggle
goes
through her body. "Oh, yeah," she finishes with a smoky murmur.
"I shall look forward to it," he murmurs. "Along
with
so very many other things."
Fires burn lowly for a little while within the Ranger
before
she puts them aside and returns to the cuddle of which all others are
merely
shadow.
Vere has clearly abandoned his earlier suggestion of
seeking
their separate beds, and he sits quietly, smiling down into Robin's
face,
as he softly strokes her forehead. He hopes to soothe her into
sleep,
as he thinks she needs it after her strenuous day.
"Mmmmmm. Nice...." she murmurs.
A
soft
unconscious croon seats itself within the girl's diaphragm and she
settles
herself a little more comfortably on the sward. Listening to his
silence
and stillness... somehow it takes the edge of the clatter and voices
from
elsewhere deep within the castle. Like listening to the
rain.
Or slow gentle waves. Or... Robin's eyes drift close without her
thinking
about it.
And
soon her breathing deepens. There are still little ripples and
twitches
in response to the odd pot dropping in the kitchen or a hail on the
battlements,
but Robin's face relaxes in slumber, unknotting along with her soul.
Vere lets her sleep, sitting quietly for the next few
hours
and thinking on how his life has changed. Shortly before dawn he
hears
the change in the noises from the castle, as the servants begin to stir
for
the new day's preparations. He strokes Robin's face softly and
whispers,
"Awake my love. The new day comes, and gardeners will soon be
here."
As the noise from the Castle increases and dawn approaches
Robin's
eyes begin to move below their closed lids. Whatever she dreams,
it's
not entirely pleasant as her face draws into anxiety and her hands and
feet
twitch slightly.
At
Vere's touch, though, and at the sound of his voice, the Ranger wakes
instantly,
calmly and without startling. She opens her eyes.
Croooooon.
Last sight of the night, first sight of the day, Vere. It doesn't
get
any better than than.
"Vere."
She draws his name out in loving hum, as she smiles up at him with
wonder
and joy.
Then
pounces for a kiss. Immediately active and alert -- and in the
present
company, decidedly perky -- Robin is definitely a morning person.
Vere laughs, returning the kiss. Then he rises
smoothly
to his feet, drawing her up with him. "We both have things to
do,"
he says, holding her hands in his. "If fortune smiles upon us, we
shall
see each other again this day before I leave. If not, know that I
am
always with you, and you with me."
"Weeelll," Robin raises from her feet, easily and
lightly.
The rest has obviously done her a world of good. "I'm not sure
I'm
prepared to be so philosophical about it." she says with a warm
smile.
"But yeah, you're stuck with me now. And if things go on too
long,
I'm *definitely* going to be looking you up." That coming from a
Ranger
of Arden and a cross-Shadow hunter.
She
pauses a moment. Then engulfs the man in an enormous hug.
"Unicorn
be with you, Vere. Know that I'll always be yours." There's
warmth,
strength, and devotion in the words of her heart and her body.
"I know it, my lady. And I yours." Vere kisses
her
once more, then releases her, steps back, bows, and turns and leaves
the
garden, a smile upon his face.
She watches him disappear among the turns of garden, her
eyes
glittering. Once she can behold him no more, the girl flings her
arms
and spins rapidly, a twirl of exultation. Throwing her blond head
backward,
the call lifts from Robin to the lightening sky, a clarion whistle of
triumph
and joy.
After
which, she spins herself into a tight self-hug. Humming quietly
under
her breath, and with a light step, Robin takes herself to a different
place.
Maybe a little while longer within the boughs of a tree...