Book
Four - The Masquerade
Part
Six
Some time into
the evening Marius spends some time sipping at cold water (as
available) to "cool his head."
Then, walking as if he had a mission in mind, he approaches
Cambina. His all-business walk will slow to a casual stride, and
then he gives a slight bow.
"May I have the pleasure of a dance?" he asks, biting hard on each word
over the throbbing of his heartbeat.
She looks at him quizzically, not replying, not moving for
several long heartbeats.
Made more loud in Marius' ears, so that even the gentle
strains of music are but a buzz.
Just when he is sure she is going to just stare at him,
she reaches out her hand, wordlessly, to be led to the dance
floor.
A conscious effort is what is required to breathe, which
he does carefully.
She wears a bemused smile and this particular dance is
somewhat athletic and does not offer much opportunity for
discussion. Cambina is excellent, although Marius suspects that
her dance skills are best appreciated by a partner rather than an
observer.
He attempts not so much to impress but strives not to
hinder, followed by the stresses of some level of perfection in his
movement. If someone were to read his mind, they'd find a
mathematical construct of kinesthetic merged with music to remind him,
"Step HERE, come down on the heel, turn, step, STEP."
"Thank you, Marius. Would you like to take some
fresh air with me? Or do you have other appointments to dance?"
Marius remembers to breathe again. He manages a
smile that's surprisingly boyish, and he nods, slightly. "As the
Otter does, I try to live with a little bit of improvisation.
I would be pleased to share some of the night with you."
He doesn't seem to notice his use of words. He obviously means
the ambiance, not... yeah, right.
Cambina smiles, turns, and begins to walk rapidly through
the crowd, which parts before her like magic. She takes a wine
glass and a carafe from a passing servant without slowing down at
all. Quickly she is at the exit and, assuming he has followed
her, so is Marius.
A quick walk into and through a small side garden and
through an inconspicuous gate leads to a low stone wall next to a
reflecting pool. Cambina turns and sits on the wall, and pours wine
from the carafe into the glass. The pool reflects two moons and
the sound of the revel is
muted by the intervening hedges.
Actually, seeing her movement, Marius picks up his own
glass. He twirls it by the thin stem in offering it
to her. He leans against the wall, but not sit. He's
actually a little calmer away from the crowd, although it is as if his
heart is caught in his throat as he looks at her under the
moon for a moment.
He actually lets her take the lead.
"Welcome home, Captain. If no one has said so,
yet." She raises her glass, then drinks from it.
He drinks to it with her. "It has been said in a
variety of a ways," he admits, amused. He takes a deep breath, as
if he was going to say something else, and then stops, suddenly, and
laughs.
"This..." he extends his arm to refer to the moonlight and the
silence. "Perhaps is not what you think. I have had a dream
of you. It was not..." he shrugs, trailing off.
"Originally, I
had hoped," he distances himself vocally, as if starting to tell a
story. He turns and leans against the wall with his hand not
holding the glass, but it is low, as if looking for a sword he does not
wear. "I had hoped," he repeats, "just to mention it
to
you, casually." A cut-off laugh. "But it was not a casual
dream,
and while I would not want to burden you with phantoms and shadows, I
had
hoped it would be of some interest."
He breathes again, as if a splinter had been removed.
She looks at him, the moonlight reflecting on her face
from the pond, and she smiles. "I have been somewhat evasive, it
is true, but that is the prerogative of a seer. Tonight, at
least, I will have the passing enjoyment of the benefits of my
horrible reputation." She smiles and is, perhaps, not so
unapproachable as her reputation has long suggested.
"But you have a non-casual matter to discuss with me. Pray, tell
me of your dream."
"Forgive me," he starts out, "for my sudden poetic
nature. So many riddles and games lie in dreams, that this is but
a reconstruction, a story that I can never tell the same way twice, but
will always remember differently."
He takes a breath and sets himself better to rest against the
wall. "The city of moonlight and sky, began to... invade, slowly,
this city of stone. Specifically, it began to spin itself around
you, trapping you, suffocating you with dreams, when I was
called." He shakes his head. "Not called by anything but a
feeling, and I was the only one to go into the velvet grey to find you."
He shrugs, and looks apologetic. "In there we were visited by the
ghost of the King. Our...grandfather. He called us the
'untouchable,' and the 'untouching,' as if it were amusing to
him. He claimed we were both on a journey, and with a ring he
placed on my finger, he charged me to navigate in dreams and
darkness." He chuckles, suddenly. "I awoke half expecting
to see the ring still on my finger, it was so real and vivid."
There is a line of sweat along his brow, and he is just a step away
from trembling, but he is also done, and it was important to him to say
this.
"I am at one with the idea of my eventual death and like
most of our kin, I expect it will come as a complete surprise to me and
that my affairs will not be in order. I think it would be
unpoetic of me not to die in a way that was tied to the Tir-na Nog'th.
"I can try my hand at interpreting your dream, but I am no
Oneiromancer. This dream is for you to
interpret. The advice I can
give you is that it is easy to bring too much of your own needs, wants,
and
fears to any attempt to interpret visions . A reflection is best
viewed
in a clear, still pool."
"So, will you tell me your interpretation, or shall I tell you what I
think of it?"
"A seer," he smiles. "Not merely a historian, a
daughter of a King, a lover of the fanciful as all women are rumoured
to be?" It's almost a murmur, and then he straightens
up again.
She shrugs. "I am that I am. Why would I not
share it with my cousins?"
"Because I suspect you seek a different power over them
than that," he says, a little offhandedly. He chuckles. "I never
trust a woman to be anything but... complicated." His smile is
that of the cheshire cat who ate the 200 lb. canary... in bits and
pieces.
"Women are simple creatures, and so must manufacture
mystery. But none of those rules apply to family. There are
those who call us 'inhuman'. I think they are right in ways they
do not understand."
Marius nods. "I would not disagree with you.
Still, where one raises monsters, another might raise monster slayers."
"We're hard monsters to slay. Even those of us who
are but frail monstrosities are tougher than most."
"That you speak of death suggests to me that our
interpretations will be at odds from the start," he says, his smile
wide. He stretches for a moment, working out some of the kinks in
his back, as if his muscles were wondering why he had been so tense for
now the moment is passed and life resumes from the terse pause in which
it had been placed.
"But if it can be done mutually, with the suspicion that my
interpretation may influence even your own, I will give you what I
can. My heart and mind must remain my own until darkness claims
another part of them." He smiles an enigmatic, thoughtful smile.
"For what it was worth, I think it was merely a dream. Not the
wish the heart makes, although perhaps there is some wish-fulfillment
in it. You looked like my mother," he says the last few words
very quickly. "There is no lack of ease in interpreting that. Yet
you were not her, and that, Cousin, was never in doubt." He tilts
his head. "There are
things, however, that influence dreams. Events, subconscious
cues..." he shrugs again. "Perhaps there are magics that do so,
or merely the night's dinner before sleeping." The shrug turns
gracefully into his usual slightly-feral smile.
"I woke with purpose. That was what was meaningful to me. That
another had to grant it? That is a measure of my discomfort,
yes. Even if the King inside was just a reflection of my inner
thoughts. That you were involved? I have not spent much time with
you, so perhaps I was able to label you according to the wishes of my
dream."
He takes a breath.
"But if it was not merely my subconscious, it was important.
Since I cannot place my finger upon the seeds of dreams, and tell you
what caused this one to sprout, I asked you here, embarrassed slightly
to take your time for
a fantasy or shadow."
He smiles at her, graciously, as if the smile was a bow. Her turn.
"You have not said when you had this troublesome
dream. I have heard that the whole of the army was lulled into a
sorcerous sleep and awoke as one with a great shout. They did not
remember what it was that they dreamed, but that it was a great evil
and most would not sleep again in Chaos. Here, Vialle has long had
nightmares. I wonder if hers have stopped?" She shakes her
head. "I think there are too many disturbing dreams to dismiss
them as mere coincidence."
"I did not dream until I returned here," he says, and it
is probably the flattest tone he has used since his return to
Amber. He shakes his head. "Then it is an unrest we all
feel, an upheaval. I could have nightmares of the sorts we were
fighting. I could wake, insisting my hands were covered with
blood. Instead I wake a hero, a not-gold-nor-silver ring
symbolizing a holy quest invisible on my finger." He
laughs a hollow laugh. "And the serving girls dream they will be
Queens and call it a nightmare because the soup they
ordered in their haughtiest tones is served warm instead of cold.
I cannot dismiss them as coincidence, but I cannot take stock in them,
either. You are kind in reminding me of that."
She looks away, "Oberon is Amber. That is the only
certainty."
"I hesitate to draw the conclusion, for Oberon is
dead." His tone has a bitter in it. One that might be
palatable in small bits, but it would take a lot of honey. He
nods, though, and looks away, up at the sky, thinking.
"Is this the ghost of Amber, then?" he asks, softly.
"No, we have been damnably unable to achieve the ghost of
Amber. Unless Prince Corwin starts sinking through
the floor, we may have to assume this is the corpse of Amber. The
question is 'can the heart be restarted?'" Cambina asks.
Marius laughs a bitter laugh, and sighs. He turns
towards the wall and bumps his head against it once, grinning, but
still somewhat sad. "The untouching and the untouchable talking of
hearts. Alas, I cannot even do the deed for myself." He
turns back and looks at Cambina. "I am no healer, and the shocks
I provide are merely those of the playfully socially inept, rather than
those of sufficient catalyst. But why
be morbid? Let us dance on the corpse and hope it sufficiently
roused
by our joviality to wonder why it's laying down and not joining the
party." His grin fades to merely a smile.
"All cities, they say, are shadows of Amber, some more
refracted or out of time than others. Have you ever wondered what phase
of Amber the dead cities in Shadow were reflections of?" She also
smiles. "This is
a coronation, not a wake for the dead. And I am afraid that if I danced
with you again so soon, even on the corpse, I might be seen to be
favoring you,and I would not want to burden you with that reputation.
Shall we return to the hall?"
After Jerod ends the dance with Llewella, he seeks out one or two
others.
Marius makes for Vialle.
Random is close by, talking with some of the nobles, but
keeping an eye on Vialle. He gives Marius an encouraging look on seeing
the direction of his approach.
"You said I would discern you no matter how you were
masked, and you were correct, your Majesty." The words are spoken
almost like caresses. "Still, you are a pleasure to the eye and
your outfit accents your grace. I would be able to
tell you merely by your
elegance, had I no other means." (flatter, flatter)
Vialle smiles at the compliment.
"Tell me, do you dance, your Majesty? Or may I bring
you something, so that you can taste of the festivities around you?"
"I may dance later in the evening. Random said he would
call for a pavane as soon as he's free, and he'll lead me through it. I
don't need anything to drink, but if you will stay by me--my lord--we
can talk for a little while."
She almost slipped and used his name, Marius thinks, but caught herself
at the last moment.
"It would make this Otter's whiskers curl to make the time
pass pleasurably for you," he says. "Are you familiar with the
creature the otter? He is, in the words of the poet Jenne
Micale..._
"otters -- you have forgotten otters_
with sleek tube torsos_
and stubby little legs_
with handy clenched clawpaws_
tiny child fingers_
fickle pinktongue satin_
or more a wet sea towel_
slinky serpent-silly_
tumble down slick slopes_
rosenose silly-whiskered --_
and you --_
i see you have forgotten otters.
"Although," Marius adds, "perhaps you remember them better
than I, coming from the worlds of liquid and silk as you... might."
Vialle says, "I have not forgotten otters. Certainly I
will not forget them now, Sir Otter."
"Then my task is accomplished, for I hope to be in your
thoughts, my Empress." He moves slightly closer. "Are you
free of care, or do things worry you here?"
"Tonight I am free of all cares," Vialle says. "I am
putting them all off until the morrow. And then I will delegate them."
Marius chuckles, in a way that isn't entirely certain
she's being witty. He'll take it half-and-half.
"Then I shan't add even a trifle to tomorrow's work, and perhaps there
will be a place wherein I can lighten that burden."
He makes his smile known through his voice.
He pauses. "If it is not intruding, can you tell me what you find
lovely? I am acquainted with the sight of things, but I think you
enjoy things a little... deeper."
"Texture," Vialle says. "Ossian makes sculptures for me
with that have many different feels beneath my fingers. And
the different drapes of cloth in a formal dress, the way they fall when
I walk. Scent on the wind. It still holds the fascination it had for me
when I first came to Amber. Random once said I was the only woman he
knew who found the stink of a dank dungeon tolerable. Or perhaps the
contrast enhances my love for fresh, rich odors now. What do you find
lovely, Sir Marius?"
"Being alive, sweet Lady. Where even in death some
things retain their loveliness, it is life that is the root of
beauty. It is the ability to experience the world. You can
find that even the pain of living has its own delights." He
laughs.
"The things I have found most beautiful have been in celebration of
life. The dances of the dolphins in Tara Ming, against the slow
sunset over the sea. The sound of men working the ropes in the
late afternoon, everything in measure and working right... right in
that way that says everyone's doing their job, everything's simple."
He sighs, probably shaking his head from the sound of it.
"There are complicated things that are beautiful, but any
complicated system is delicate, and delicate things have a
way of breaking."
An observer would see that he's looking at Folly as he says this last
bit.
Vialle, of course, cannot be counted among that number.
"And yet it is complicated and delicate things that sometimes are the
most beautiful for all their fragility, as if it were their
very ephemeral nature that made them so. I am told that sunsets are
very beautiful. By definition, they do not last. Do you find sunsets
beautiful, Sir Otter?"
"That life is transient is, yes, part of its beauty, even
to one who may look towards death from a far horizon." He
sighs. "From one who took too close a view, perhaps it is even
more beautiful. But for sunsets themselves, no.
There are things that are aesthetically pleasing, but it is just the
passing of time, which, to some extent, is meaningless overall."
"How many sunsets have I counted over the bay? It is the events
that make them worthwhile. The sunsets I have counted while
savouring my peace, or the sunsets curled up in a lover's arms, against
the thousands of sunsets marking the shifting of the crew. There
are too many times the sun has set that I have not even seen it, and
too many times when I have noticed it without appreciating it."
He chuckles. "But, then one is magnificent enough to catch my eye
and I reevaluate my answer yet again."
"So, it is a complicated answer, and by my previously stated
philosophy, the complication is not a thing of beauty." He
smiles. "Have you tasted any of tonight's delicacies?
Perhaps I could offer you a drink before the dance ends and you are
needed elsewhere?"
"That would be very kind of you, Sir Otter." Vialle's lips
curve into a smile.
The Otter procures a glass and a small plate of
easily-handled tidbits from the banquet, weaving in and out of the
crowd with a smile and haste. He returns quickly.
"Tell me, Sir Otter, do you know yet whether you will be
staying in Amber after the morrow? Has my Emperor set a geas on you as
he has done with so many others?"
"The only geas I know to be on my kind, slippery as they
are when responsibilities are to be given," he says, making sure she
has the glass before leaving it, and taking the opportunity to brush
against her fingers slightly, "is that I have promised my
fellows to seek the
answer to a fiery riddle. While I never tire of the waters, there
are
rivers of flame as well. Had you perhaps a task for me, so I may
serve
Our Emperor through your requests?"
Marius notices that Lucas is looking at the two of them,
with a bit of a frown on his face, before the crowd closes and he loses
track of the other man.
"Merely that you might be present to make my days lighter," Vialle says
lightly. "It seems that so many of our kindred are to
leave in the days to come. I had hoped that some of my friends might
remain. But if you already have a quest, Sir Otter, I cannot ask you to
defer it for my poor pleasure."
"Ah, my
Empress, but your pleasure is a command, and one I would hasten to accomplish
repeatedly." He cannot help but smile a little at that last
comment.
Vialle cannot see the smile in Marius' voice, but she may
hear it. She smiles at him in return, and turns her attention to the
plate of dainties he has fetched for her.
As the evening gavottes, galliards and pavanes onward,
Robin finds herself leaning against the open doorframe to the
gardens. Behind the night air carries the hint of spring and
growth which occasionally gently waft past the faintly glowing
girl. On Robin's face is one of her
trademark 'imagine that' looks as she takes in the costumes, the
rituals,
the crowds, the noise, etc. of court life.
By and by, the Huntress finds herself looking for one particular
costume cum ritual in particular, an elaborate moth of silver and
grey. If Aisling is still there and findable, Robin raises her
eyebrows to the Flutter and turns her head slightly toward the garden
outside, a gentle 'can we talk?'
Aisling is easy enough to track, as I imagine she is no
stranger to the dance floor. In fact, she appears honestly alight
with the joy of it, and this might go even farther than her unfailing
grace at making her one to dance with and around.
Nonetheless, when Robin catches Aisling's eye, she soon enough makes
her polite excuses and finds her way (still glowing in the aftermath)
over to the Huntress, and thence to the spring night
outside.
The Huntress smiles her thanks and turning, lets herself
drift into the metaphorically glowing woman's wake. Once outside,
Robin's nostrils flare and a deep breath goes into her. While
it's obvious that the girl finds the rolling lawn and curved tree lines
still a little confining, it's better than the squared off walls of
stone.
Lit by
gently glowing oil lamps suspended from wrought iron poles, fine marble
flooring extends for a several meters beyond the open doorway to make a
small patico, but no wall or stair separates the women from the
greenery.
With
another gentle smile, Robin gestures off to somewhere more private than
where the golden light and gentle clamor of the Masq pour out of the
open french doors.
Aisling follows Robin out further, her expression (as much
of it as is visible under the mask) one of polite interest.
Out in the darkness, Robin's argent nimbus casts
soft-lined shadows away from her in all directions. "Thank you,
Aisling," the girl's voice falters a little as her words slip away from
her in the Chaosian's actual presence and she drops her eyes.
The mask and moonshadows probably hide the faint
expression of unease that crosses Aisling's face.
Then the segue master strikes again, Robin is obviously
*not* someone who rehearses. The girl looks to Aisling with
honest curiosity in her eyes.
"Listen. My father says that before I can flout the court's
dress rules, I should be certain of the message I'll send by doing
so. Uhhh, you speak clothing. Aaanndd it seems like you
speak Court too. So, if you would be so kind, what message would
I send by wearing breeches or trousers -- *nice* ones," Robin
qualifies, "to Court?"
Aisling looks very taken aback, startled. This was
not the conversation she was fearing.
Robin looks confused by Aisling's reaction.
Dung! What did she do wrong *this* time?! Verde, these
castle people are a different species, the Ranger swears it. But
Robin really wants the answer to this question, so she waits for it.
"Uhmm..." She blinks a couple times. "Well,
that you abdicate your place as a woman, and deny its protections in
addition to its drawbacks... And you won't get to join the
men. Some people may take it as a show of disrespect for the new
monarchs, undermining the very structure that brings all good things to
Amber with your wanton ways..." Aisling is grinning a bit,
laughing somewhere.
"Do not
take my ideas alone on this matter. I have been gone for five
years, and here for only six before that. It may be possible to
wear pants as a woman... When I told the Princess Florimel I
wanted to emphasize my recent military endeavours when I met the
family, she put me in pants. But that was family. Perhaps
if you emphasized
your Ranger-ness over your female-ness? You should speak to
her..." And likely seeing a facial twitch, Aisling smoothly
continues, "Or Brita, perhaps... Or Llewella? Or Lucas,"
and at this she grins.
Robin nods as she listens carefully. "Yeah, I was
thinking of maybe talking to Llewella too. But Lucas?" She
raises an eyebrow and then breaks into a chuckle. "Verde!
Can you imagine? I mean, sure. He speaks clothes like no
one's business, but..." the girl shakes her head, "I honestly can't
imagine the type of conversation we'd have." Merry laughter at
the thought lifts from her into the night sky.
"It would probably be fun..." Aisling
suggests. "You don't seem like the type who shocks
easily..." She's so egging Robin on, in a very demure way.
"Dung!" Robin's still laughing, though she grins to
Aisling to show she knows what's going on but doesn't mind. "Me
and Lucas. I mean, I'm sssooo gauche, he'd probably distort just
from the fashion void."
Aisling grins in a quick flash of white.
But for a brief moment there, something runs behind
Robin's eyes, a plan or a thought or something. Her brow furrows
for a moment, but then she dismisses it with a chuckling
headshake. Too stupid for even her to try.
"Thanks Aisling. That gives me a good start."
The Huntress stretches her arms behind her back as she relaxes in the
open air and solitude. "Deny its protections, but don't get to
join the men. Huhn. A woman first and Ranger second?
That's just... plain
dumb." Strange, her voice says, very strange. Robin shakes
her
head, not so much in disbelieve as in incomprehension.
Green eyes glimmer over to Aisling. "Aisling, don't sweat it so
much," she says with warmth in her voice. "Since you spent a mere
six years here, you have me beat by only some 5+ years. You are
far less the stranger to this place than I. That's why *I'm*
asking *your* advice." Robin smiles in the darkness.
"But it's just... People's impressions of one
*really matter.* It's so hard to be something other than what
everyone thinks you are..." Aisling frowns and changes the
subject, "If you do choose to dress in trousers, you should certainly
go for clothes as fine as possible to give the lie to mutters that you
are showing disrespect. I'd think the way to go, without
compromising motion, would be fine fabrics... Brocades of green
on green..." she looks thoughtful. "Perhaps Solange would
be one to talk to? Or have you considered King Random himself,
when he returns? He has an agile mind."
As Aisling changes the subject, a swell of pure emerald
sympathy flows through the Ranger's eyes before she politely turns them
away. Robin accepts the change of subject, somewhat reluctantly
though.
Aisling shows no reaction.
"As fine as possible... does that mean well-made or
heavily ornamented? Cause I don't want to trip myself up with
tassels and stuff while avoiding the trap of skirts. That'd make
the whole thing pointless." Robin chews on her lower lip in
thought.
"I... suppose I
could talk to the King. But he's probably going to be real busy
with important King stuff. And this could really seem like me
being a petulant brat if I'm not careful."
Aisling shrugs. "There's no reason for him to
dismiss what you care about, and I don't think he will." Both
parts of that sentence are necessary, to her way of thinking.
Well, of course, they are. The Ranger's
matter-of-fact acceptance of Aisling's logic just illustrates how so
very *often* royalty and reason accompany each other in the her opinion.
But in response to Aisling's statement, skepticism dances on Robin's
face. "Aisling. I'm not a war-hero. Or even a
acquaintance of Random's. Why should he give a damn what I care
about?" _Other than using me_ Those sentences hang somewhere
between harsh cynicism and hope that just maybe this particular King
will be different, and are tinged with sincere curiosity about the man.
"Robin, it may be that for the next ten thousand years you
and Random will share this universe. What is important to you
will
bear on what is important to him." Aisling smiles, "Plus, you're
interesting. It may be that my view of him is skewed, in that all
my observations of him were while he was captive, but I feel that he
has a soft spot for interesting people."
"Ten thousand years?" Robin makes a soft thoughtful
puffing noise. The girl is slightly boggled by that thought, her
youth showing in the widening of her eyes. It's obviously okay
for other people to live that long, but her? "Yikes."
"Interesting?" The Ranger meets Aisling's eyes with
confusion. There's another word she's never applied to
herself. "But..." the girl doesn't complete that sentence.
She's not sure what the but is, just that there is one.
"Interesting," Aisling confirms. "Though, alas, duty
calls me away... I told my otter companion I'd watch his
back."
She grins.
"Oh! Of course." Robin smiles back. "I
didn't mean to monopolize your time. Thank you, Aisling, for your
expertise and your advice." The Ranger bows slightly, though she
shows no intention of returning immediately to the festivities.
She's got a lot on her mind right now and the semi-quiet of the night
garden is more suited to her anyway.
Aisling bows slightly in return. "I hope I have lead
you aright." She smiles gamely, and heads back to the dance with
light and graceful steps